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Damned tooth [19 Jan 2004|08:29pm]
[ mood | worried ]

The dentist is a an evil, evil entity...that is all I have to say about him.

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[14 Jun 2003|12:02pm]
[ mood | uncomfortable ]

So my journal is still here.........wow. I nearly forgot about it.

I am ready to pop now. I would be happy to go into labor any day. I never knew the human body could stretch so much. It seems wrong somehow. Poor Jason is probably tired of all my whining! Hurry up baby..........hurry up!

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I'm such a horrible person [30 Jan 2003|02:24pm]
[ mood | relieved ]

After spending too much damn money for school, I attempted to add one of two classes.
I couldn't get into either. I was supposed to feel disappointed, worried, etc....but the only feeling I had was relief. Then guilt for feeling relieved.

I have my Comp exam on April 11th and the CBEST test on April 12th. Was that someones idea of a really sick joke? Not to mention that my app into the credential program requires a nice long essay where I am supposed to be eloquent and all that crap. And my stupid ankles are so swollen my socks are actually tight.

So even though I won't be accepted to the two semester program due to the fact that I am lacking ONE lousy class...I am relieved nonetheless.

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[03 Dec 2002|01:05pm]
[ mood | blah ]

I am now, officially, a boring old person.

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I have succeeded! [20 Sep 2002|03:57pm]
[ mood | excited ]

I have been on a mission lately.


And I found it...oh yes I did! And to think this little place was only a few miles from my apartment and I never knew.

And it doesn't just stop at back bacon...oh no...there is so much more. McVities, and crisps, and even Horlicks! hehe The only disappointment was that they had no Starbars. I asked the lady if she could order them and she'd never heard of them before. But she said she would try YAY!!!

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I have too much time on my hands today............ [19 Sep 2002|04:15pm]
[ mood | silly ]

Look at this goofy little site: it's keledy's favorite person!

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[19 Sep 2002|08:05am]
[ mood | hungry ]

The wonderful pleasures of England!

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and the day gets better and better.... [06 Sep 2002|12:00pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

I just went to stand in line for a half hour, only to be told, through the very impersonal window that I am not active this month and I must go talk to my worker. Oh yes, I felt like telling the invisible person behind the mirrored window- I’ll go talk to my worker. And when he calls me back in 10 DAYS I’ll ask him why I am inactive, and then he will take another 10-20 days to figure it out!!!!! I am sure that he is bombarded with calls every month around this time asking why why why?

I looked at the woman behind me with her two children and I thought that I was the lucky one. What if I did have two hungry children to feed and all they could do was point to the door and tell me to talk to my worker? I am exceedingly annoyed. I didn’t even receive my July monthly eligibility report until August 30th. And then the August monthly report came 2 days ago. Two! And the sheet advised me to send it in by the 5th of the month. The 5th of which month? August or September? Either way is was late because I can’t possibly get it there in a day unless I take in myself.

One thing I feel certain of: I was never fully explained the process. I am unsure if I am supposed to wait for something in the mail before I go pick up my stamps or not. On the Monthly eligibility report it asks that you claim all income. As a VISTA, I know that our income is exempt, so do I include my pay stubs or not? I worry that my worker isn’t familiar with VISTA status. I wonder if my worker even cares.......I doubt it.

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Today is Coldplay Day! [06 Sep 2002|10:11am]
[ mood | restless ]

The concert is tonight and I just want to go now! I have no desire to be at work today and I know I will accomplish nothing.

At exactly 5:30pm I will be in a vehicle heading for San Fran! Yippee

Last night the electricity went out...which isn't so bad because I have a back-up battery in my alarm clock, but somehow it messed up the stereo in the living room. When the electricity came back on, the stereo sound was turned WAY up and all of a sudden there was a huge booming sound of static from the living room. It scared me so bad I thought I would have a heart attack. It happened at 4am and after that I had a hard time sleeping.

But at least it's friday and I get to play tonight.

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Ode to Keledy [05 Sep 2002|12:23pm]
[ mood | happy ]

I was sitting around last night after yoga, feeling content and I suddenly realized that for the past few weeks I have been Happy! Yes, happy. A feeling I had almost forgotten due to stress from the old job.

Since I have started my new job, even with the little bumps in the beginning, I feel great! I feel creative and productive and better than I have in ages....thanks to Keledy. :)

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[29 Aug 2002|02:16pm]
[ mood | giggly ]

Oh yes I'm in heaven!

The best bit is the shopping......caramel McVities......mmmmmmmmmmm

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Damn Kids [20 Aug 2002|02:53pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

There are two kids that live upstairs from us in our apt complex. And they are painfully loud...at the oddest times. Yesterday, they decided to pitch a tent right outside our front window and play "camping." And they attracted about four other kids. They constantly argue too, with loud piercing child voices.

I guess the area outside our window is the best place to play if you're a kid, because they are ALWAYS there! With a yipping dog in tow.....SHUT UP!!!!!

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[20 Aug 2002|10:14am]
[ mood | cranky ]

I have a headache today. One of those headaches that continues at a slow throb right behind the eyes.

I yelled at three people driving to work this morning. It felt only slightly good.

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[19 Aug 2002|01:11pm]
[ mood | happy ]

So, my cat is adjusting. Last night was the first night she didn't cry. Yay!

Yesterday morning was scary though, because she managed to dart right out the door when Jason got the paper. I was torn from my sleep by Jason yelling that the cat got loose. I ran after her and she almost made it to the next complex before she stopped. She was so confused. I finally got her to come to me, and she was so scared she was shaking. She isn't showing much inerest in the door now, so maybe she scared herself enough not to want to go outside.

Work is boring today. I went to lunch with Jason at the chinese place across the street. I ordered orange chicken (which I usually like) and it tasted like crap. I only ate a little bit and let Jason take the rest home in a box. He is under the impression that I want it for dinner. Blek! I didn't have the heart to tell him I hated it since he was treating. Maybe I will accidentally drop it on the floor or something. Or right in the garbage disposal. hehe

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Poor kitty [16 Aug 2002|05:56pm]
[ mood | worried ]

I finally brought my kitty to live with me. Last night. I had been pondering it for a while, but there were so many obstacles in my way:

1.Jason's allergies (though he has agreed to use allergy pills)
2.The insane pet deposit they charge here, plus the extra $15 a month. (we decided to be secret about and hope we don't get caught until we have the money. terrible huh?)
3.The fear of trapping a mostly outdoor kitty indoors and litter training her.
4.feeling like a cruel person for transferring her from her other home.

But the last time I went to see her at my old house she looked so skinny. And I will worry about her when it starts getting cold outside. So the decision was made.

But she is so sad.....it's breaking my heart. She is hiding under the bed and she won;t budge. It has been nearly twenty-four hours and she hasn't used the kitty box once. How can she hold it so long? I think she hates me. She cried all night long. I barely slept. I hope that I made the right decision......poor kitty.

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Food Stamp Angst [16 Aug 2002|10:04am]
[ mood | embarrassed ]

So I am officially on food stamps now. I thought that once I had them in my greedy little hands that I would be excited. I would run to the store with my "free" food money and walk proudly through the line with my purchases. This was not to be.

I think I surprised myself with my embarrasment. It is obvious to me that people who use food stamps have a difficult time. I can see the change in the checkers eyes the instant they see I am using stamps. It's instantaneous. Then the people behind me start staring. And all of this in the ghetto store no less.

I just want to scream at them, "I am volunteering a year of my life to my community, and this is the thanks I get?" The worst part is having to tear out the stamps from the books. It takes forever, so it gives people ample time to stare and then get annoyed that the "food stamp girl" is taking so long. I tried to have the stamps torn out before I went into the store, but then the checker gave me a hard time; had to look at all the books and match the numbers up. Like that wasn't embarrassing or anything.

I am sure that I will eventually get over it. I am glad that the county sees fit to give me that extra amount for food, very glad. Because I would go hungry.

I started keeping a food stamp journal. The whole process is demeaning and grueling. I wish there was a store somewhere where you could only use food stamps. Then everyone behind me in line, and everyone in front of me in line would all be the same. And I wouldn't walk out of the store feeling like the only food stamp recipient in all of Sacramento.

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Happy Girl!! [16 Aug 2002|09:48am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

Even though my birthday isn't for another month and a half, I already got my first present.

COLDPLAY will be in San Fran on Sept 6th and I'm going the be there!! Whoo-Hoo!

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[01 Aug 2002|04:38pm]
[ mood | happy ]

So I think I could really get into this whole VISTA gig.

I strolled into work around 9:30, then left around 1:30 to go check out the non-profit resource library. I stayed there for a few hours, and I was home by 4. Freedom is a good thing.....a very good thing.

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New Job, New Home..... [30 Jul 2002|01:30pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

Too many new things lately. I feel like I changed my whole life in a matter of days. I am still recuperating.

Last week was my first week at the new job. It was horrible. I felt completely worthless and I had no idea what I was doing (not that I do now either). Things are slowly coming together though. It is a bit frigtening when you are asked in your first week of a new job to design a webpage and start researching how to write a grant. I had no idea where to begin. Not to mention that there is ZERO supervision here. I showed up to work a half hour late the other day and there was no one around to notice.

The other VISTA, whom I am replacing, will be here until the end of August. Already her hours have dwindled to 10am-4pm. Nice huh? So as long as I show up before her and leave after her, it doesnt really matter. There is no one here to monitor me. I'm not used to that.

The only problem is that my days seem to drag on forever because I really don't have much to do yet. If I read one more peice of literature, or research one more program on line I am going to go cross-eyed!

I hope this all starts making sense soon.....or I am going to wonder if I made a mistake.

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So many cities, so little time.... [11 Jul 2002|09:15am]
[ mood | optimistic ]

I brought up an idea to Jason a few weeks ago....more of a thought really, just in fun. I said how exciting it would be to live in a different city, each for only one year. All over the U.S.

Last night, after pondering this for a while, he agreed that it was a feasible plan. He is able to relocate to many different cities with his job......hmmmm....how could I even think of this after my horrid moving experience? But how exciting......oh yeah....

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